Why I Started Meditating and How It Quietly Changed Everything
I want to be honest with you from the start. I resisted meditation for years. The whole concept felt uncomfortable to me — sitting still doing nothing, which felt like a waste of time, combined with a vague spiritual undertone that I wasn't sure I related to. Every time someone suggested it I thought — that's for monks and yoga retreats, not for regular people with jobs and responsibilities and a mind that won't stop running even at midnight. What eventually pushed me to try it had nothing to do with spirituality or self-improvement goals. It was pure exhaustion. My mind was constantly busy — not productively busy but chaotically busy. Replaying conversations, worrying about things I couldn't control, planning and replanning the same decisions, switching from thought to thought without any of them actually resolving. I was tired all the time despite sleeping enough. Irritable without obvious reason. Unable to fully concentrate on anything. It felt like havin...